the alchemy of words

i met him at the railway station......we bumped into each other...! and we just couldnt get our eyes of each other.....the three special words had been utterd not by mouth but in our minds,flown out like so many barbs and there was no calling them back. it was such a beautiful feeling.the tapestry of images the words created,savoured the sounds,the feelings the words aroused.there was nothing more fulfilling and delightful.suddenly our eye to eye contact broke....his father came and took him away....much to my displeasure.i went back with a smile on my face.perhaps i was bitten by the love bug.hard to believe,but yes it had hit me.every single day i thought about him.perhaps i was madly in love with him.we both were too amazed at the look of each other at the station that we did not tell each other a word.......every day i went to the station .perhaps he would come.2 months passed by.........i couldnt resist myself..
it was a rainy day......i was sitting with dad in the balcony..and opened the newspaper.....suddenly i saw his picture........he had died in an accident.i just couldnt believe my eyes.....my first love..1i so wished i had spoken to him that day..told him about my feelings...contacted him.i lost my first love....
if i had said those three words..."i love you"maybe i wouldnt have to face the hard to believe truth..dat he is no more.....
i dont feel like living my life without him....my world is ruined....i have loved and lost.....how can god be so merciless.........
today when i recaptulate those wonderful moments......when i first saw him.........i feel those three words are indeed strange things............."i love you"
they mean so much........but make you face so many problems............its complicated..........
love..love..love............why do people fall in love
this reminds me of the song...........wise men say only fools rush in...but i cant help falling in love with you......love entices,seduces,cajoles.....................
love is strange..!