Mirror, Mirror on the wall,
Surly you do lie.
Mirror, Mirror on the wall,
We don’t see eye to eye.
Mirror, Mirror by the stairs,
Your image is surly haunting.
Mirror, Mirror by the stairs,
My self-esteem you’re taunting!
Mirror, Mirror on the wall,
I’m sick of your deceit.
Mirror, Mirror on the wall,
I think you’ve tried to cheat.
Mirror, Mirror on the wall,
I’m surely not than thin.
Mirror, Mirror on the wall,
Is that really my own skin?
Mirror, Mirror on the wall,
Are you showing my inside?
Mirror, Mirror on the wall,
Why can’t you give me pride?
Mirror, Mirror on the wall,
Why don't you ever speak in my stride..?
Mirror, Mirror on the wall ,
I look at you with a gleam in my eyes
I ask you the truth ,
As i see my inner self....
Mirror, mirror
On the wall.
How old will I be
When I fall?
Mirror, mirror on the wall,
Why do I look in you, at all,
For all I see is the same old me,
And not how I so want to be.
Mirror, mirror on the wall ,
How I hate you more and more,
I'm having to look the other way,
When my reflection's on display.
I looked at you for truth, but all you gave me was dismay.
Saturday, May 21, 2011
Broken melody...
Sailing on a stormy sea,
Fighting hard against the tempest,
Waves of anger crash down on me...
The irle is killing me..
The fire is hot and fierce.
I am backed up against the wall.
All this heat is overwhelming.
"Come and love me!" I call.
The flames flick at my face,
But it misses and catches my hair.
I am then engulfed in the blaze.
No one is there to care.
I take any pain
Just to see his face
And feel his hands
Or his soft cold lips against mine.
Watching him spill my blood
Sends me into ecstasy.
A knife, a life, your puncture heart,
I try to hold back the flow of blood
As it seeps between my fingers.
But why should I feel remorse?
Why should I feel guilt or shame
When you've tormented me all these years?
I laugh a nervous cackle,
But still relief brings tears.
Love is my sin and thy dear virtue hate,
Hate of my sin, grounded on sinful loving.
As I stand before my gallows,
I feel Death descend his blackened hood,
To drain the brightness of the sun,
So appropriate to my solemn mood.
The preacher whispers prayers of comfort,
But I am not afraid to die,
The only fear I cringe from
Is meeting you on the other side.
Fighting hard against the tempest,
Waves of anger crash down on me...
The irle is killing me..
The fire is hot and fierce.
I am backed up against the wall.
All this heat is overwhelming.
"Come and love me!" I call.
The flames flick at my face,
But it misses and catches my hair.
I am then engulfed in the blaze.
No one is there to care.
I take any pain
Just to see his face
And feel his hands
Or his soft cold lips against mine.
Watching him spill my blood
Sends me into ecstasy.
A knife, a life, your puncture heart,
I try to hold back the flow of blood
As it seeps between my fingers.
But why should I feel remorse?
Why should I feel guilt or shame
When you've tormented me all these years?
I laugh a nervous cackle,
But still relief brings tears.
Love is my sin and thy dear virtue hate,
Hate of my sin, grounded on sinful loving.
As I stand before my gallows,
I feel Death descend his blackened hood,
To drain the brightness of the sun,
So appropriate to my solemn mood.
The preacher whispers prayers of comfort,
But I am not afraid to die,
The only fear I cringe from
Is meeting you on the other side.
Friday, May 13, 2011
A Moment In Time… A Remider Of Hope
I Was Walking Down The Street And i Heard An Old Man Say 'I Have Been In Love With The Same Woman For Fifty Years Now'. I Was Touched Until iHeard Him Say 'I Wish She Knew'. i was shocked...how can true love go unrecognised...? and he said.....
It is said only the brave cn love woman - but it needs more than that to withstand the pain given by woman who cheats on u. With a lump in my heart i asked the man to continue..... He was all of 15 , a pro at high school when he saw a irleana, the new girl in college.....and immidiately fell for her. Irleana, all of show and glam...had all the guys luring for her....she had a new boyfriend every week....she was like the queen of hearts. days, months and years passed by.......but irleana was still the same. One day i asked her out........she readily accepted.......i was on cloud nine....i had got the girl of my dreams....we dated foro 6 months......and then 1 day i called her up late at night.......to tell her that i was going out of town for some work . I would be back within a day or two....she was like okay , il miss you come back soon.......luv. I geared up to board my flight to chicago.....i had an importnt business meeting that day......i wound up my work early and left to surprise irleana.I was coming back home before schedule....i bought a bouqae of red roses and chocolate cake for my baby.....all ready to and take her in my arms.......i reached her place. i was just about to ring th bell......wen...i heard..."yea jamie" ....you wana stay here tonite....sure....johns outta town....so we can spend the nite together......i peeped through the window...and saw hem kissing...The roses fell from my hand.....i went home with tears....i didnt call her for a week...nor did she call me presuming i was still at work....then 1 day i confronted her...she said she was always fond of jamie and not me.i was just her puppy. Dat was the final blow. That very night i left the city....an shifted to philadelphia. Today am 65..and still a batchelor......i did have girls luring after me..but i never moved on......i always wanted irleana as my girl and my life partner..and what she did to me broke my heart.....50 years and i still love her.....she is married to jamie today.......she is also 64...she has 2 grown up children. After i left the city i didnt go back...but last week i dnt knw what made me go back to that place........and i saw her in d garden with jamie....she still looked that beautiful...even today the gushing winds blew her hair....the charisma of her eyes still mesmerises me.....even today she is so beautiful.Im glad she didnt notice me.....she seemed to be very happy......and im happy if shes happy.........but i still wish she knew...somewhere in this world there is one man...who has loved her all his life.
Today i realize that its really painful to say goodbye to someone that you don't want to let go but even its more painful to ask someone to stay if they never wanted to stay.
But i still believe in love....my friends dont understand how.....and i have no answer to that....but lets just put it this way- Some people have so much respect for their love they have none left for themselves...
There have been time when i just break down....and cry....i dont know how long i will live....especially as i have got cancer.....love kept me alive for 50 long years with her memoirs...cancer should be kind enough to let me live for a year ot two more. I went home with tears in my eyes...after that day i went to meet the old man at his place every day .....he was like and epitome of love to me.....all of 18...i was and i had so much respect for him......its been 3 years since i met him and he changed my life......at one point of time i was contemplating getting into relationship coz of what happened with him....but he just told me-
Just because the past has been painful....doesnt mean the future will be...so never let events from your past change your future...or you will be miserable ever.I am engaged today to the person i love, my boyfriend...our relationship has stood the test of time....but.....uncle has not been well....he is in pain.the doctors are clueless what to expect. Suddenly my phone rings...it the doctor...Amy. dr. norald here.....john's in a bad condition.i am at his place.....he wants to see you....please come soon.....I rushed as soon as i could.I saw john uncle lying on the bed - he was breathing with lot of difficulty....and was telling me to always keep smiling and be happy..and that he will miss me....i broke down.....i was like why are you sayingthigs like that..? youre gna b here only......he handed over a rose and a sealed envelope to me and requested me to give it irleana after he dies.....i was like i will give it if u want....but youre not dying...youre gonna live much longer.......to which he smiled........and...breathed his last......he was gone....cancer had taken him away....it wasnt kind to him.Next day after the funeral i asked every1 to leave me alone...i closed my room door and was all alone..thinking about him........i couldnt stop crying........then with a heavy heart i picked up the rose....it had lost its beauty......and then i went to open the envelope....on a small piece of paper it was written -
Dear irleana,
how are you baby? sorry for being so away from you. how are you....how are jamie and the kids....i am okay here no need to worry about me........
and only this much...i was shocked.....he had hardly written anything....then i saw another piece of paper in the envelope........and i was shocked to read what was written -
My heart cried in deep pain…In the memory of my love in vain…
She must also cry one day…
Either in storm or in rain…
And you will feel then….
What is true loves importance…
But till then, I will be no more…
To stand by your side, dear anymore…....
My time has come, and so I'm gone.
To a better place, far beyond.
I love you all as you can see.
But it's better now, because I'm free
P.S.-i still love you. hugs and kisses- john
take care baby...And always keep that smile on...
I didnt believe in love until i met uncle John. John taught me the value of love and loyality in a relationship....he matured my relationship......today 10 years have passed and hes gone....i posted the letter to irleana....but got no reply....she is still happy with jamie....i am happily married with a kid today......i have been lucky in love thanx to john's blessings.....but for the bitter part of love i have learnt one thing -
To fall in love with someone is easy
But to forget somone you love dearly with your heart and soul is impossible ..
love is sweet when it happens
But its a killer when it ends ...
When love ends it feels like joy and relief to some .
But to others its unbarable pain and suffering ..
The pain and memories never go away ..
John uncle i miss you........hope some day i meet u in heaven.......may his soul rest in peace.
Isnt it strange how one encounter with a person can change your life and perception towards things.....?
I still remember his famous words when i used to go to him for counselling when i had mood swings and was going through..... and had fights with my parents....he just used to tell me one thing-
"So drop the little razor, and pick up your life, forget all the bad things, the pain and tragedy"...
I love you john uncle. take care.
Your bundle of joy,
Amy.
It is said only the brave cn love woman - but it needs more than that to withstand the pain given by woman who cheats on u. With a lump in my heart i asked the man to continue..... He was all of 15 , a pro at high school when he saw a irleana, the new girl in college.....and immidiately fell for her. Irleana, all of show and glam...had all the guys luring for her....she had a new boyfriend every week....she was like the queen of hearts. days, months and years passed by.......but irleana was still the same. One day i asked her out........she readily accepted.......i was on cloud nine....i had got the girl of my dreams....we dated foro 6 months......and then 1 day i called her up late at night.......to tell her that i was going out of town for some work . I would be back within a day or two....she was like okay , il miss you come back soon.......luv. I geared up to board my flight to chicago.....i had an importnt business meeting that day......i wound up my work early and left to surprise irleana.I was coming back home before schedule....i bought a bouqae of red roses and chocolate cake for my baby.....all ready to and take her in my arms.......i reached her place. i was just about to ring th bell......wen...i heard..."yea jamie" ....you wana stay here tonite....sure....johns outta town....so we can spend the nite together......i peeped through the window...and saw hem kissing...The roses fell from my hand.....i went home with tears....i didnt call her for a week...nor did she call me presuming i was still at work....then 1 day i confronted her...she said she was always fond of jamie and not me.i was just her puppy. Dat was the final blow. That very night i left the city....an shifted to philadelphia. Today am 65..and still a batchelor......i did have girls luring after me..but i never moved on......i always wanted irleana as my girl and my life partner..and what she did to me broke my heart.....50 years and i still love her.....she is married to jamie today.......she is also 64...she has 2 grown up children. After i left the city i didnt go back...but last week i dnt knw what made me go back to that place........and i saw her in d garden with jamie....she still looked that beautiful...even today the gushing winds blew her hair....the charisma of her eyes still mesmerises me.....even today she is so beautiful.Im glad she didnt notice me.....she seemed to be very happy......and im happy if shes happy.........but i still wish she knew...somewhere in this world there is one man...who has loved her all his life.
Today i realize that its really painful to say goodbye to someone that you don't want to let go but even its more painful to ask someone to stay if they never wanted to stay.
But i still believe in love....my friends dont understand how.....and i have no answer to that....but lets just put it this way- Some people have so much respect for their love they have none left for themselves...
There have been time when i just break down....and cry....i dont know how long i will live....especially as i have got cancer.....love kept me alive for 50 long years with her memoirs...cancer should be kind enough to let me live for a year ot two more. I went home with tears in my eyes...after that day i went to meet the old man at his place every day .....he was like and epitome of love to me.....all of 18...i was and i had so much respect for him......its been 3 years since i met him and he changed my life......at one point of time i was contemplating getting into relationship coz of what happened with him....but he just told me-
Just because the past has been painful....doesnt mean the future will be...so never let events from your past change your future...or you will be miserable ever.I am engaged today to the person i love, my boyfriend...our relationship has stood the test of time....but.....uncle has not been well....he is in pain.the doctors are clueless what to expect. Suddenly my phone rings...it the doctor...Amy. dr. norald here.....john's in a bad condition.i am at his place.....he wants to see you....please come soon.....I rushed as soon as i could.I saw john uncle lying on the bed - he was breathing with lot of difficulty....and was telling me to always keep smiling and be happy..and that he will miss me....i broke down.....i was like why are you sayingthigs like that..? youre gna b here only......he handed over a rose and a sealed envelope to me and requested me to give it irleana after he dies.....i was like i will give it if u want....but youre not dying...youre gonna live much longer.......to which he smiled........and...breathed his last......he was gone....cancer had taken him away....it wasnt kind to him.Next day after the funeral i asked every1 to leave me alone...i closed my room door and was all alone..thinking about him........i couldnt stop crying........then with a heavy heart i picked up the rose....it had lost its beauty......and then i went to open the envelope....on a small piece of paper it was written -
Dear irleana,
how are you baby? sorry for being so away from you. how are you....how are jamie and the kids....i am okay here no need to worry about me........
and only this much...i was shocked.....he had hardly written anything....then i saw another piece of paper in the envelope........and i was shocked to read what was written -
My heart cried in deep pain…In the memory of my love in vain…
She must also cry one day…
Either in storm or in rain…
And you will feel then….
What is true loves importance…
But till then, I will be no more…
To stand by your side, dear anymore…....
My time has come, and so I'm gone.
To a better place, far beyond.
I love you all as you can see.
But it's better now, because I'm free
P.S.-i still love you. hugs and kisses- john
take care baby...And always keep that smile on...
I didnt believe in love until i met uncle John. John taught me the value of love and loyality in a relationship....he matured my relationship......today 10 years have passed and hes gone....i posted the letter to irleana....but got no reply....she is still happy with jamie....i am happily married with a kid today......i have been lucky in love thanx to john's blessings.....but for the bitter part of love i have learnt one thing -
To fall in love with someone is easy
But to forget somone you love dearly with your heart and soul is impossible ..
love is sweet when it happens
But its a killer when it ends ...
When love ends it feels like joy and relief to some .
But to others its unbarable pain and suffering ..
The pain and memories never go away ..
John uncle i miss you........hope some day i meet u in heaven.......may his soul rest in peace.
Isnt it strange how one encounter with a person can change your life and perception towards things.....?
I still remember his famous words when i used to go to him for counselling when i had mood swings and was going through..... and had fights with my parents....he just used to tell me one thing-
"So drop the little razor, and pick up your life, forget all the bad things, the pain and tragedy"...
I love you john uncle. take care.
Your bundle of joy,
Amy.
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